Do you want to be a "Black Spider Man"?

"What is wrong with me? I feel this great desire to change myself, to see who I am... Being this unnoticeable person, just like everyone else, is not so nice. I wanna be something else: black suite, white shirt, cool hair style... I want all the nice girls to be mine and I just wanna use them, have sex with them... I want them to want me - sounds cool, right? I wanna dance like no one else can, I would sing songs with a perfect voice, that would attract girls, I can even humiliate someone for people to see that I'm strong, that would be rude, but cool. That's what girl like, right? At least, that's what I think they like. Yeah, I bought this clothes, walking in the street and everyone is envy and jealous... I have the most beautiful girl by my side. She admires me, she doesn't know my personality, she just admires how I look. Would she even care who the real me is? Well even I don't care who I am now! I just like it... And what is it about this black stuff that covered me? I just like it, actually I love it....

... What is wrong here? I lose all my friends now, what is wrong? I wanted to be better... and where did I end up and with whom? Seems like I'm alone and no one wants to even look at me? WHY??? I had so much when I was real without changing myself, I had friends who love me, one and only girl who loved me, my family... Where are they all now? Maybe they didn't like what I did to myself??? But I thought... no, it should have been for good, not for bad... And what should I do now? How to get rid of this black stuff???" - Based on the movie Spider Man 3szh5ZsAcgJU

Privet to all who are with me today!

About 2 weeks ago I saw this movie and this part of it and it just stuck in my mind... Why do people think they need to change themselves to be better (as they think)? It might happened because they want to be like some movie star or a singer (or a wrestling fighter, which would be just funny). you can try, but all what you had before would be gone. What the modern world considers to be cool and sweet would not be attractive to someone you love. Or vice versa, he/she can hurt you for asking you to change yourself to be "better". There are so many people who love you for who you are and think you are beautiful right now, without any changes... Maybe you don't know about it, maybe you think you are alone in this world, but there is always someone who thinks you are the most beautiful/handsome person in the whole world (even more beautiful then Brad Pitt himself). Or maybe someone loves your personality, how you act on public, your sense of humor, intelligence or just your laugh. It may be so simple. Just be yourself, be the one who they once met and started to love. People met you when you were yourself, they don't want to see you being deferent.

I hope you find something new to think about here. For me it was the right timing... I was about to change myself for someone I loved... And my friend told me I became rude and prideful. Later on I saw it myself. I decided to stop it before I would change completely. I hope you, my reader, understand what I'm talking about.

In Russia we have this quote: "Sometimes better is much worse then good, because you need to be content with your good. Better can spoil your good"

Andrewshka